You are an amazing, wonderful soul.
I so wish you could see yourself through my eyes.
I love you and accept you unconditionally
as you are for who you are where you are
without expectation or obligation.
You are worthy of being and have the right to be
loved and accepted completely, entirely, unreservedly
with an undivided heart, now and forever.
I didn't fall in love with you or love you any more
than I might have otherwise because of your body,
as much as the thought of it brings me pleasure.
I haven't fallen out of love with you or loved you any less
because your body has borne the ravages of disease:
You are, were and forever will be strong and beautiful.
Your heart and soul, your mind and body,
will always be desirous and attractive to me.
I want you to be happy.
I want you to enjoy life to the fullest.
As you seek and find,
explore and enjoy your happiness,
I want to explore and enjoy it with you.
To the degree that I can,
I want to add to your happiness
in any and every way possible.
I don't want you ever to be alone.
As we explore and enjoy this life,
as short and fleeting as it is,
I want us to know
that we'll never be alone
because we have each other.
I want our happiness, our lives,
to be a mutual, shared experience.
People say many things to comfort us.
People sometimes fail even with the best of intentions.
I can't tell you that everything will be okay.
I can't tell you, "You got this."
I understand why some do and I don't fault them;
they mean well and maybe they're right.
We don't know what tomorrow holds
but know that I have your back.
Regardless of what circumstances you encounter
and how situations play themselves out,
you never have to be alone.
I will always be here for you.
I will never leave your side.
This I promise you as your friend.
I can't guarantee that I'll never make mistakes
but I assure you that I will never intentionally hurt you.
I used to be be afraid of many things,
especially when it came to being with other people.
I'm no longer afraid of commitment.
I'm no longer afraid of being alone.
I've experienced and learnt to enjoy both.
It's the thought that we might live this life
while both of us are here without each other in it
that shakes me to my core.
I don't know exactly what this means
or where this journey will take us.
What I do know of a certainty
is that I want us to walk this path.
All I want from you, all I ask of you,
is for you to want and ask the same from and of me.
I crave your presence; I chose you.
Will you want and chose the same for me?
21 February 2018